Hello. It’s me… I know we haven’t gotten together in a long time. Too long. I’ve wanted to be here. I’ve thought about you a lot, but I have been really, really (like seriously) busy.
It has been two years (yikes) since I have posted, mostly because it has been nothing short of CRAZY. My last post was all about how I had no idea what life was going to bring me as I made the difficult decision to quit teaching kindergarten (you can read all about it here.) And I was totally right about at least one thing… I had no idea what God had in store.
At the end of May 2015 (aka last time I posted) I was lucky enough to land 2 (that’s right T-W-O) new jobs! I became a remote stylist with Stitch Fix, AND a part-time reading specialist job opened up at my school. These job opportunities literally came 2 days apart, and when faced with the choice, I thought… I’ll just do both (no biggie! HA! insert hindsight face palm). So, I started with Stitch Fix at the end of June 2015 and started my new role at school in August 2015.
Since apparently that wasn’t enough excitement, we also sold our first house and bought a new one. (Which is a whole other incredible story of God’s timing and grace.) The movers came the day after my training for Stitch Fix. We now live on the best street with the best neighbors ever, and we LOVE our not-so-new-anymore place.
And then I thought, you know, moving and learning 2 new jobs in a matter of 3 months wasn’t enough for me… SO we got pregnant- just for funs-ies (just kidding, we totes planned it). In September 2015 we were thrilled to find out we were expecting. I spent the entire school year growing another precious baby boy. He was born May 19th, 2016- healthy, happy, and beautiful. His name is Evan Spencer, and I’m only slightly obsessed with his blue eyes and giggly personality.
When Evan came into our family, I made the difficult decision all over again to leave teaching. I absolutely LOVED being a reading specialist, but with 2 kiddos at home and more flexibility being a remote stylist, it made the most sense to stay home while continuing to work for SF.
But, that’s not all….
As I was worrying about what this newest change meant for our finances, another part time job fell out of the sky, just with the most perfect timing, and yep, you guessed it… I took on another new job (if you’re counting, that is 3 in just over year). I dove head first into helping our neighbors and dear friends with their property management company in October of 2016.
Then on a whim (and push from one of my besties), and with my blogging/writing aspirations always on my heart, I applied to be a contributor for the Austin Moms Blog. I was thrilled when I was invited to join the contributing team this spring! It is SUCH an inspiring community to be apart of, and I adore all the other mommas on the team. I get to share my experiences as a mom, connect with other local mommas out there, and write! I still can’t believe they chose me sometimes. If you’re interested, you can check out my articles here!
Oh, and did I mention Matt is getting his masters while working full time? No? Cuz, you know, that’s how we roll… stressed. out.
But don’t be fooled- all this change was taking its toll.
In the midst of having a second baby, leaving my career, moving homes, 3 new jobs, volunteer blogging, a hubby in school, and dealing with some pretty dramatic family stuff with my mom, this spring, I found myself treading water, often in tears, and left feeling completely burnt out.
Since leaving the stability of full-time work I have been living with a lot of anxiety that my decisions have put our family in dire straits. Our reality right now is that we cannot afford our life (as it is) unless I continue to work. MY reality as a mom and wife is that I don’t want to miss out on this fleeting time with my littles, and working and being a mom is HARD. Anyone else sit in this tension? So I didn’t want to drop any of my plates. They all felt critical and super important and if I put one down (or dropped one), I would be failing. BUT this couldn’t go on… I couldn’t go on they way it was…
I had to let go of control and fear. I had to quit something. With a lot of trembling and anxiety, I chose to quit Stitch Fix. It was a really scary move. I had to step out in faith that God would provide even though that meant losing half of my income. So March of 2017 I let it go and prayed my little heart out.
And y’all, He has shown up (of course, bc that’s who HE is). We have been making it work financially. I have enough energy to recommit to working on myself- both physically (through Camp Gladiator, wut wut!) mentally, and spiritually. Case in point- I am actually writing this blog post… finally. I should have let go of control sooner, and I
probably totally have more to let go of on the daily. Fear and anxiety in general are always a battle for me…
BUT THEY WILL NOT DICTATE MY FUTURE.
Onward and upward
Looking back on the past 2 years is a bit nuts. I can’t really believe all that has happened and all I have done. I have had to step out in faith a number of times, and I already see the sweetness of that fruit in my life. Amazing what obedience brings. Life has been a lot lately, but I am already thankful for the ways God has grown my faith and my life.
I always had flying thyme on my heart and really wanted to continue blogging, but with all of that going on, it was something I just couldn’t find time for. Honestly, it was something I have put a mental block on as well. I have been letting fear of failure totally block progress. But no more! I am going to keep trying, knowing my story isn’t finished, and neither is this blog.
Things I want to accomplish here in the next 6 months:
- Post helpful recipes and tips that will help people with their REAL life. One thing I have realized through all this crazy is that ain’t nobody got time for fussy. Having 2 kids and
23 jobs has forced me to keep it simple. (can I get an amen, mommas?)
- Create weekly meal plans that you can have sent right to your inbox each week with shopping lists and easy recipes for REAL life.
- Do some mini cooking lessons on Facebook Live, bc… fun!
- Learn how to shoot those awesome quick recipe videos you see popping up all over. They are so entertaining and helpful, and I have some great recipes to shoot!
- Share my messy, real life story in hopes of connecting with other moms and families out there.
So thanks for sticking with me through that whole novel! Like I said… it’s been CRAZY, but I feel as though I am on the cusp of a break-through. Like I’m so close… I can see it, and it will all come together with just a few more steps ahead as long as I keep moving and keep my eyes up.